Listening to the song, emptiness....... For a while..... Thinking of so many things happened in previous months, Today I have got two different stories to tell. The experience of United States which transformed me to a different person and my surgical procedure which is transforming me into another one. Life changes quicker than the thought...... I am struggling to my own thoughts and ideals. India is a tough country to live, pressures of society are extreme, and everyone here is bounded. Someway or the other, people here needs someone to accompnay them to Malls for shopping, for eateries to have fun and good time, go for an adventure ride. People want to do things which everyone does, they are reluctant to learn something new. I want to do the same thing that my Boss did, I'll go the same path that is successful. I dont want to look around and appreciate what we have around that path. Why not to be creative? Why not to test things which no one did till now? Why do we need movie reviews to watch a movie? why to buy a laptop which has been bought by someone else? Why to believe on someone else's believe? Why not to go to a place which no one visited? Why not to love someone you never met? Why not to give your life a chance to live?
There are several more questions. I ask them to myself as well, why am I doing same stuff, why not learn something new? I had lot of time to spend thinking about it, and I found, for last two months I have not learned anything new. Nothing new!! Its offcourse good to practice what you already know, but why not learn something new to practice differently. why not to do things differently? I've been pressurized to get married, but no one really answered me why? What is there that everybody around me want me to get married? I want to live my life, I want to enjoy my Life, I want to learn new things, things which no one knows, things which are impossible. I want to do impossible things, achieving them is a different thing, doesnt matter actually whether I achieve them at all or not, I want to give them a shot.
So many thoughts, random thoughts, sitting alone in my study and thinking what I require to be happy. Money, Girlfriend, wife, food, trip, company, actually I dont know. I am confused and dont have an answer to it. I am not happy these days, which is directly affecting my work. May be I have so many random things in my mind. Writing blog will set me free of my thoughts. I have not really thought of this blog, I have not really combined it or thinking of making it coherent. No proof reads, just flowing emotions and thoughts through my hands to the keyboard to the screen.
I desperately need a reason to smile, not finding one, may be looking at wrong places. Actually, I dont need a reason to smile, I just need to smile, and people will smile along with you. Because people are never bad, its their perception created by circumstances made them good or bad for particular person or society. So, if you think you've seen it all. Look around again. Always smile, spread it. Be happy, be kind and practice compassion. Always.
Keep Smiling all of you and take very good care of yourself. :)
